I had many feelings about the disease after I heard of his first surgery. I was very close to him and don't really know why. At the begining maybe 'cuz we were the only guys here at JDs, from the South Hemisphere, we shared a lot of the same problems on getting Joes. Things went that way and talking we saw that we shared a lot more things and along 5 great years we were together chatting at MSN or via PMs and e-mails. I did not believe we would loose him until I read Deanne's PM.

Two weeks before he passed away we were on telephone talking to each other, Deanne was out at the Super I think, his voice was weak, but still I was believing he would come out of that. I knew what doctors said and so one, however I could not believe that he would live us. I hung up the telephone and believed we would meet as we agreed. He said me that once Deanne told him he would get a big surprise at the door at that would be me. Things don't go as we plan sometimes and I was told it in a very bad way.

I can't look at my Joes and not think about him. At the first days I was pretty bad, even my wife could not believe that. She saw how we were close but could not imagine how bad that bad news would hit me. I considered the possibility of leaving the hobby. After I put myself to think how I should react about that and the right thing to do, as many said it to me and specially Deanne, was get back taking pictures 'cuz Craig would like it.

Right now I just get good memories when looking at his pictures or thinking about him. He was the best person here and I'll try to honor his memory the best way I can.

Thanks for starting it Shane, gave me courage and the moment to write some feelings.

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