I don't know if you wanna hear something about what you wrote above, or if I have a english good enough to make me clear. BTW I feel free to speak since you made it public and that I'm feel like I'm your friend.
I'm just 26 yo, but I saw many things happen. I heard stories like yours everyday, I'm a high school teacher. For my past experinces, I had several girlfriends (I can't remember the exact number), fiancées (3) and 1 wife (I'm still married! ), I can tell you that the perfect and only woman doesn't exist. You learn to love, you aren't born to love just one. You can love another women (but keep lovin' just one at the same time, more than that will drive you crazy ). Love must be a think that made us better and be better. All feelings that bring us the opposite isn't love to me.
If she doesn't know that you love her try to tell her. Maybe she feel the same. If she doesn't feel the same you have to go one. No women like a boot liker. To all the woman man need to man. What I wanna say with it, that men doesn't cry? No. Man need to cry yeah, there is no problem with it. We just need to be independent. Your love have to make life beautiful not drag you.
Raven my friend you can call for me on the MSN, send me a PM with yours, we can make a longer talk there.